So this crazy idea popped up in my head one afternoon reading, a book titled Postcards by Rayda Jacobs, : I want to go to DUBAI!
Cray Cray because I will be leaving my friends, family and life behind to start a new temporary life on an entirely different continent.When I told some family members about it, they looked at me as if I was going mad. The most popular responses were : "You? Dubai?", "You're gonna come running home in less than two weeks!", "Your father will never let you go", "How will you be able to cope over there?" and best of all "What about your studies??".
One thing for sure is that I do not make hasty decisions. I lie in bed for a couple of nights thinking things through. I browse the internet for any information that can help in my decision making and I scout for certain responses by certain people in my life before I decide that it's time to let people know what is really going on in this head of mine.
I just feel that I need a getaway for a while. So if I make it a working/studying/travelling experience then I will be having my bread buttered on both sides :) I always wanted to travel and it feels like if I don't get a start at it, then it will never happen. I am almost 21 years of age and I can clean and cook, I am responsible to look after myself. And it's not as if I will be gone for the rest of my life, I just need like a year and I will be back.
I feel like here is not much for me back home, I feel like going away will change my life, change how I see things in life, make me more confident and independent. Because here I am constantly under the wings of my parents and the four walls surrounding me that I feel like a cannot grow as a person.
I guess most of all is that I want the chance to show everybody that think I am still ten years of age, that think that I am still young, vulnerable and soft that I can be independent, I can be strong, I can be away from them only missing them a little, I can make positive changes in my life and that anything is possible if you just believe.
Had the same predicament myself and through months of research and tying in with school I finally made a way to get away from the humble nest and just be on my own to find myself and get a broader view of the way I go through life. At this age of 21 I felt as though I just needed some space to breath and stand on my own nad make mistakes and do all the things that will allow me to grow. I know its weird that would have to go to another country to achieve that but change o scenary is an added bonus. I surely hope that whatever decision you will come,it'll be something that's good for you. Its good to know that are other individuls who feel or going through similar experiences. Best of luck and great writing.
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