Loss of Passion

Recently my Bestfriend and I were speaking about my Dubai situation, one of our almost a dozen topics of conversation in one afternoon. And for me the one thing that really stood out the most, after she left, was that I actually admitted to her that I lost my passion until the Dubai thing.

In one of my previous posts you would have noticed that I have had a huge knock in my life. I stopped studying for just over six months for academic purposes which is basically that I failed big time. This made me lose so much confidence in terms of my future and where I was headed towards next. I was free to do anything yet I decided to stay home, where all I did was sleep, eat, and watch television. I could have gone to work but I didn't. I had so many work opportunities yet I just passed on most of it or my brain would automatically just block it out. 

I was so stressed yet mellow about everything at the same time that the two emotions clashed and in the end nothing seemed as important to me as it would before. And when I opened my eyes, six precious months has passed and I had nothing to show for it, besides the fact that I applied at UNISA to continue my studies at a pace that I am comfortable with.

Then my Dubai ideas came along :) ... now day in and day out all I think about is Dubai. How my life would be there. All the things I would do. The different culture environments I would experience. The things I would  be able to learn over there. About what an awesome opportunity it would be. 

I haven't been this excited about anything in a very very very long time. I haven't been this sure about anything before. I haven't been this crazy to want to move away from family and friends so obviously I am serious about it. 

I feel like the passion I lost, is slowly being found again.