What do you do when your world suddenly comes crashing down? But you are well aware that no-one but yourself caused it?
It's the little things people say like "wow it's almost a year" that makes your mind dwell on things you shouldn't even be thinking about. You start thinking about "what if's" and "maybe's". And all of a sudden you have made a decision that your heart feels is wrong but your mind feels is right. So you stuck in the night having to listen how you heart and mind goes back and fourth, rambling on things they think are best for you. And the sad thing is you, yourself, has no clue whats best for you.
You wake up the next morning feeling numb and blue with no zest for life itself. But you force yourself up because life goes on anyway whether you like it or not. As you start going about your usual routine, it is those irrelevant things like the song on the radio, a cute saying on the car driving next you and the lovely couple sitting in the bus infront of you that makes you realise how much you are going to miss a crucial part of the life you had before today.
Now you are left with only the hope of maybe someday you meet up again and reconnect.
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