Taking Charge

Lately I have been very happy about life. I have this new outlook and a new factor that just brings some zest into my life.

Yes, I have reconnected with an old flame. A few of the comments were "Again?!", "What happened last time?", "Why'd things end first time around?". I am just like whatever I do not need to explain my personal life to you. All I need to know is that I am happiest I've ever been and I see my future looking great! I have grown as a person, he has grown as a person, and even though we've matured separately I feel that we are much more better together now than the last time. Yes we still have the problems with getting the approval from my side of the family, but is that ever going to change? I think not! So this time around I have also changed my attitude to a "i don't give a damn t's my life and I will live with the choices I make". I have kept myself good for 22 years and I think I deserve to be happy and I deserve to choose what makes me happy. And this decision to choose what makes me happy has been the best yet. I feel great that I am going ahead with what I want. Yes my family matters but they do not have the last say anymore. Now I am slowly getting them one by one to accept that I am a grown person who is quite capable of making her own decisions.

I just came to that point where I felt like if I do not start taking charge of my own life and showing them that I can be independent then I will always remain that little ten year old girl they all feel they need to protect. I am taking a stand and I am doing things my way.