Am I ridiculous for falling for him??

Today I saw his status, it was a girls name, I FB'd her just to see who she was. I don't even know if his into her, she could be a friend or even a cousin! but I was jealous! This green monster look is not working for me. It's not how I am. I want to cry thinking about it. Thinking about how ridiculous this entire situation is! I wish I could just forget about him. Just turn this page over and not even remember his name. But on the other  hand, I want to be with him. I want to go on a date with him. I want to have cute little picnics under the sunset with him. I want to dress up in cute little dresses and go to cute little restaurants with him. I want it all but i want it with him. and I don't know WHY I feel this way!