Lately I find that I keep thinking about my future. I know right, like who doesn't? Usually I think about a happy future, what I want in life and how I want it to be. Yet lately, I have this pessimistic cloud around me. Like I am so unsure about where I might be two or three years from now. I find myself dwelling on things like: What if I don't finish my degree? What if something so bad happens in my life that destroys my future plans? What if I am aiming too high? I don't know what is the matter with me, but I am usually more optimistic than this. I feel like 18 months is so far away. I feel like there are so many obstacles in my way that I cannot breakdown so that I can finally grab onto my next goal.
Then I think to myself: I have waited 3 years for this. All I can do now is push through this next 18 months. I owe myself that much. But am I really ready? I feel that I am ready. I also feel that others think I am not. So now, my main goal is to prove them wrong, and fight this pessimistic streak I've got going on because it is SO killing my vibe. LOL
Final thought: blogging actually makes me feel good. Getting things down is way better than having to go sleep with it on my mind. Virtual worlds have got its perks :)
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