Reality Check

About two months ago, my family was hit by one of the biggest tragedies that could be experienced by our family. I lost a cousin, my cousins lost a brother, a wife lost her husband and my aunt and uncle lost their son and his son and newborn baby lost a father.

It is the worst feeling in the world. He was young and will always be remembered for his vibrant, loving self. It was a difficult time but we had to learn to accept it. The most important lesson that could come from this tragedy is that we all have to learn to live life as if there's no tomorrow. Greet your neighbor, parents, siblings, friends or the even the random person walking down the road! We have to respect one another and appreciate one another. Love each other with all the passion possible to exert! Anywhere, anytime, anything can happen and you cannot go back.

We had a few days to say goodbye to my cousin but he couldn't say it back but we know that in his heart he was saying it to us. It was the hardest time of my life seeing my cousin laying on that hospital bed helpless and until today I will find my tears rolling when I think of him and what he left behind. He will always be in our memories an will always be remembered for being one of the greatest persons I knew in my lifetime.

I love him so much!

letter for a stranger

This might came as a surprise to you, but I like you .

Trust me when I say that I never intended for this to happen. It sort of just sprung right at me. You're one of my closest friends and I feel that we can tell each other anything, yet by telling you this small detail i feel that I am making the biggest mistake of my life.

I recently discovered that I might like you more than a friend. I start to fret about the tiniest things I do around you, or with, and make things awkward for myself, especially if we were messaging each other for most of the night before.

I feel as though this is going to be my worst mistake. Ruining a great friendship for something I think I feel. One night I sat and thought of you, your qualities and your beliefs. And came to a realisation that your like the perfect person I would like to, one day, end up with. You are driven by your goals and aspirations, you would to anything to help another, you are focused on what you want to achieve, you are religious and not afraid to express your oppinion.and most of all you always make me laugh!

there will be days that I do not get to see you, and I find myself missing you like crazy. I would sit for more than 10 minutes deciding on whether to sms you or not, and eventually I'll flake out on the idea. I would find myself on your facebook wall for no reason, just to feel somewhat close to you. I would go out of my way just to hear your jokes or speak to you for even 5 minutes.

Crazy thing that love does to you. Now my worst fear is that you don't feel the same...

just letting go...

Being hard on yourself wont help anyone.

You are so used to being excellent at everything you do. Meticulous. Perfectionist. The moment something falls out of place, you freak out; stress and think that it is the end of the world. Well you're wrong. Those obstacles in life that make you fall out of place are put there for a reason. The logic behind the reason is that you pick yourself up again, let it go and start fresh.

Of course at the beginning you will feel shattered. You will cry into your pillow for most of that night and you will probably start doubting the path that you're currently on. You will feel embarrassed to face the world the next day. But the only way to overcome this, is that you pick yourself up and walk with your head held high; because believe me, the ones staring at you the next day have all been there once before.

So you win some and you lose some. But never give up on what you will become.

Expecting the unexpected..

A friend once told me: "What might seem as nothing to you, looks like much more to everyone watching you."

When one develops a strange feeling towards a close friend, it is best not to deny it, because the more you deny it the deeper you fall. Yes, you are friends, best buddies, chomma's; which makes it more awkward having more-than-friendship feelings for him. It feels like you know him your entire life. You are able to speak the most silliest things in the universe and not feel judged or pathetic. You are constantly on your phone smsing each other, you enjoy each others' company and you have special names for each other, now obviously something is bound to develop.

The worst feeling in the world is having those feelings for him and not knowing whether he feels the same. You are definitely not going to ask!? Afraid of rejection and being pushed away by the awkwardness of the situation.

So what do you do in the end? You live with what you feel. Shy to break the news to even your best girlfriend. You stay happy with what you already have. You certainly do not want to lose the already awesome friendship you have began. So you will wait for your chance to come. If it is meant to be, it will certainly happen.