Lastnight I found myself wondering about the most craziest things. One topic stood out the most. Cheating.

We live in this world today, where people are intrigued by the wrongness of things. They feel that only their own satisfaction matters. They go about hurting people that are important to them, disobeying their beliefs all for a little something they call "living life".

Life does not have to be lived that way. This may sound very cliche but there really are better things in life. We might think that it will never happen to us but all around you it's happening. You witness friends and family cheating and it scares you. Just to think that it may have been your loved one cheating on you.

If only life had no wrong doings. This world would be a beter place.

friends on mind

I just got off the phone with one of bestest budz! Amina. I never heard from her in a while and felt the need to call her and see how she's doing. Everything turned out to be well and we got to speaking about alot of things. It just made me realise how much i miss my friends and how important they are to me. We shouldn't neglect our friends and i vow not to anymore no matter how zany my life may be at the moment. I will defintely be making a turn by her in the week :) and hopefully all my other high school budz!

emptiness..

As I sit and think of my life, I cannot help but feel a certain empitiness. I cannot entirely explain the feeling. Eventhough I have great friends and family, and I'm following a successful career path, I still tend to feel this hole inside of me.


There are so many things I have been exposed to but I cannot have it for myself. I realize that these are the things I want most in life...but...it feels so soon. Am I too young? Ofcause! but then why do i want it so bad? It's not exactly a want, it's more like a need, so to speak. As if to fill the hole.


Let me approach it in another manner. Maybe I feel this way because I am being denied it. So it's like a rebelious thing to want what you can't have. It's not something I should take lightly, it's a great responsibilty, yet I feel that I can cope, since I have been coping with "it" since I was about about 11 years old. I can handle the situation better than most people much older than me.


I bet if I wasn't denied many important milestones in my life then I wouldn't feel this emptiness. They thought they were protecting me from things they did not want me to experience because "they" reckoned I was too immature. Now I am stuck on this road that I feel has been set long ago for me, with no side roads, no stop signs and only green traffic lights. Is that stops sign ever going to come? Where I could just heel-down for a few seconds before I continue again...

Soppy story ...or not:)

hey hey...

Initially I came to my computer to write a soppy story about how my day was filled with obstacles that made be totally miserable. About how I could have seen the love of my life but so many things stood in the way. A pit stop to this blog made me think otherwise.

I first visited facebook, where I am currently helping out a friend in need. Obviously it was about boys and I realized that I was giving great advice that I was ignoring to use in my own situation. I told her "don't give up that easily" and that's when it struck me... I shouldn't let this minor incident get me down, instead I should try harder next time and never stop till I truly get what I want.

I truly adore this guy and we make each other happy and from now onward every person or obstacle that gets in the way of making me find true happiness with him will only push me more, push me to never give up hope and fight for what I truly want...my love.

Love,
Sweetcheeks