Rebellious behaviour?

Hey There...

The past week has been hectic. I am moody, I'm biting everyones heads off, I feel so frustrated all the time, I never agree to what others say...

I decided to rethink and analyse the cause to this behaviour. This rebellious behaviour. All I could come up with is the frustration of my life. I feel that everyone is always expecting the greatest from me. I cannot slip up for one second and not be judged.

For as long as I can think I have been doing just what everyone wants me to be doing! It's always "you should be like this" or "do this not that" and "why are you doing that? You must be like this". Give me some peace!!

They are always trying to control my life. As if I am too immature to do so myself. Yes, I dont mind a little help or advice but let me be me. I'm human, practically born to make mistakes! I'm am never going to learn my likes and dislikes, I want to try and figure things out on my own.

Basically this behaviour is coming from the fact that all the decisions I tend to make is a disappointment to everyone. They always making sure they find the tiniest fault in whatever I do. It's never good enough. I am always a failure in their eyes when it comes to things i decided on my own.

I just want people to accept the things that make me happy. Like for insstance the person iI like has got nothing to do with them! I put up this smile that they always see but its most of the time fake. because I am hurting inside and they dont even know it. They just see what they wanna see and what I let them see.

like the french says..
Au revoir!!