Hola!

Good mood? So so...It's amazing how something small and usually goes unnoticed makes your day wonderfull and how things could go the opposite direction with a sudden movement.

I almost got to see the love of my life today. Yeah.. a pity hey...it's an "almost". Today started out with a phone call and an ear-to-ear smile. I was so full of hope and immediately knew my day was going to be awesome.

Then!! with one different thought as mine all my plans and hopes for the day were shattered! I had to folllow the lead of my parents. Bye bye happiness, once again.

I must say that I did enjoy the family day I had. But then again, all the times I do go out are with my family! I just wanted something different you know, like just different (without siblings).

It makes me think am I ever going to have my freedom? Freedom to do what I feel like at this age. I'm always going to have someone by my side, watching my every move. It's so unfair* At least im free at campus to do what I want ;) lol. But then again those are only my friends, special yes!... but not the special I want.

I have learnt over the years to never give up!

Its time for me to say..
Buenas Noches

Rebellious behaviour?

Hey There...

The past week has been hectic. I am moody, I'm biting everyones heads off, I feel so frustrated all the time, I never agree to what others say...

I decided to rethink and analyse the cause to this behaviour. This rebellious behaviour. All I could come up with is the frustration of my life. I feel that everyone is always expecting the greatest from me. I cannot slip up for one second and not be judged.

For as long as I can think I have been doing just what everyone wants me to be doing! It's always "you should be like this" or "do this not that" and "why are you doing that? You must be like this". Give me some peace!!

They are always trying to control my life. As if I am too immature to do so myself. Yes, I dont mind a little help or advice but let me be me. I'm human, practically born to make mistakes! I'm am never going to learn my likes and dislikes, I want to try and figure things out on my own.

Basically this behaviour is coming from the fact that all the decisions I tend to make is a disappointment to everyone. They always making sure they find the tiniest fault in whatever I do. It's never good enough. I am always a failure in their eyes when it comes to things i decided on my own.

I just want people to accept the things that make me happy. Like for insstance the person iI like has got nothing to do with them! I put up this smile that they always see but its most of the time fake. because I am hurting inside and they dont even know it. They just see what they wanna see and what I let them see.

like the french says..
Au revoir!!

Completion of my first SEMESTER!

Hey hey :)!

So its been six months. Six months of hard studying, weeks of campus junk food, umpteen tests, never-ending lectures, but most of all six months of joyous craziness!

The mere thought of being a loner was swept out of my mind only two weeks into campus life! I met the most amazing friends and coolest "forever buddies"! We do everything together! even when we need the loo! lol! You'd imagine campus being so free and sometimes lazy but with the right friends I manage to have a balanced varsity experience.

Not only is it all about the fun we have, we also inspire and motivate one another in the studies we do. Yes! We would head of to campus library every tuesday whether it is to study, complete tutorials, get some answers or just sleep on the desk! lol we help each other through all ups and downs.

Honestly, you would think I'm way crazy for dedicating this piece to my friends but you would not believe how my survival was all because of them. I love my dear buddies and their craziness.