Negativity is such a buzz kill !

What gets me through this world is my love for my religion, my friends and family and my dreams. I feel that if I believe hard enough and strive towards my dreams it will come through.

Unfortunately for me, I live in a household and have a family where tough times have been surrounding them most their life. It's like they just accept that nothing will come, because nothing has come. But it's not like they put much effort into making things happen?? I mean does your dream really just happen?

I've blogged so many times about travel, that of cause its a given that it is MY dream. I know that I don't have the luxuries that many others have, but I KNOW that if I save and keep strong and wait then my time will come. So I like keeping up to date with newest go-to places and cultures around the world. I literally watch Travel Channel and Food Network all day. It just fascinates me how wonderful and vastly different each corner of this world is. And one day I might be able to explore it myself without having to do so through a LCD screen.

But the focal point of this post is that my family is so negative. Like today I try telling my mom about this awesome deal a friend of mine scored for just R 4 500 for 9 days doing a Thai Island Hopper Tour. International tours never come that cheap for us. Well it excludes travel ticket but includes food, transport as well and accommodation! Like for instance, my father just booked a weekend away for R 4 000 just outside the city and that is A nights in you own province! compare the two?? I'd go with the island hopper!! its on a totally different continent and it involves airplanes across the sea! what more can you ask for. Now I did not say I wanted to do the Thailand thing but I was just referring to what a great deal it was and how she, same age as myself, could book it with her parents being on board and supporting her. That's the total opposite of what my family will do, no, instead my sister makes fun of me, making statements about what type of dreamer I am and how I fantasize about things like that.
 
I am fed up with all this negativity around me. instead of encouraging me, they shooting me down. That is why I am so unhappy here. I do so much, strive to be the perfect daughter but they dont give a rats arse about what might make me happy. They don't care to ask me a bout  my dreams and aspirations. Or how I am today. No, I am just good for cleaning their house, fetching their kids, doing everything for them. As long as I can stay here and do that then they are happy!

2013

It's a start of something new.

I hope that my dreams will be fulfilled this year. I hope that I will find my happiness within my academic life as well as social life. My biggest dream for this year is that I end up fulfilling my dream of traveling to Dubai. My friend and I have decided to spend NYE 2014 in Dubai and I truly hope that it happens. Another big goal of mine is fully completing my second year, passing all ten modules, so that i only have one year left before I move off to Dubai permanently.

I believe that I have the courage and ambition to meet all my goals this year. What I need is support from my family and positive feedback and help that will help achieve what is most important in my life right now.

I am happy to say that I feel 2013 shall be a great year for me :)